What I do that can't be measured, what you do that can't be measured, what we do that can't be measured?

The first chapter of the book: 

"What Do You Do That Can'l Be Measured?  On Radical Care in Teaching and Research" by Victoria Restler left me with these thoughts about myself and others;

                                            We are the World  a song that comes to mind from when I was younger

How can we ever really measure anyone when we all enter,travel, leave, experience,interpret and etc...each life story in different ways.  We all have different ways of viewing something based on who we are what we know how we experience or haven't experienced. There are so many threads in this fabric of human beings.   Who gets to decide what  is the measurement who said it gets to be you. who are you intentionally leaving out or oppressing with your measure.   

I realized how even when you are not looking for it or realizing it systemic racism is so entangled in everything we do and that it can even be in what we undo.  I am exhausted thinking about the thinking and rethinking when you do research but the I wonder if it is natural questions that arise and not such deep dives that make me afraid of research at times.  It helped me think that maybe I do not need to be deep to see and feel and imagine research and data.

It definitely continues to enlighten what I need to do for my Capstone project.  I feel like a better understanding is gained with each reading I complete in the last 2 weeks it makes me better able to design or create my question.

What do I do that can't be measured is all the redirection of myself in my head when I am engaging others. Understanding the harms that are involved, the why's, and how's of being,  Both in positive and negative ways I am always considering and evaluating for response.  I am observant and caring when delivering information.  Considering what you are able to hear or not hear, knowing what still needs to be delivered and finding the way. Engaging other with grace and warmth knowing that feeling safe comes first and feeling cared for should follow with an ending of appreciation for the experience.  Leading with belonging is something i do that cannot be measured.  I care unfortunately even when I should not...I feel even when I know I can not, I understand or try to all the time.  You can not measure how to give healing, belonging you just know they make a difference for the better.

 

you have to feel and listen and vibe and pause and interact and meditate and...........(continue in comments....)